It was not the way I thought it would ever be, to find out the love of my life had been unfaithful for many years. I was shattered, distraught, shaken, in disbelief that it could be happening to me. l cannot describe how deeply sorrowful I felt. Living in a lie, a scam, a fairy tale blown up. No sleep, tears flowed nonstop, stomach wrenched with knots, exposed, alone....and then I then HE showed up to push me through the numbness. The Lord of the universe was as close as my heart beat, He knew my deepest pit, and yet was letting me know it would all be okay. He loves me, He will never let go, He is the Kings of Kings, Lord of Lords, and yet He is absolutely the King of my heart, the Lord of my Life. I know this more now than ever. It is the refiner's fire, to see His reflection in me. Blessed, not broken.
May 23, 2019